* look at the stars..

See, this is why I said..

2008-08-20T14:24:00.005+08:00

Jonas Brothers = definition of Gay.

I don't get it.

How is that classified as hot?

He looks like Frankie Muniz or something. You know.. Malcom from Malcom in the Middle? Just with a.. slightly longer face.

Second picture is just sexy. I'm sorry. I had to share his sexiness.

but anyway, even mae's Justin Nozuka looks better than the Jonas.
You know, minus the fact that he looks slightly.. underaged.
But he has a pretty hot voice!

Like Bret Ryan.

~~drool.~~

Fawkh. Weei just called me.

WHY CANT THE LEGAL AGE FOR DRIVING BE 15?!

I WANNA DRIVE A CAAAR $#@%%&#$*^&# !!

sigh. why o why did he have to be busy on thursday. of all ungodly days.

gahh. 17 minutes on the phone x_o Should've used the bluetooth -rubs ear-

But HAHAHA! Waste more money, nab! x]

Just zannie.

2008-08-18T11:25:00.008+08:00

Alright! I get it! I'm earthly lazy! But come on! It hasn't been that long! Just.. -counts with finger- hmm.

Well anyway, happy birthday, jakie, lime, min and mae!

Why's everyone's birthday in August? guhh. srsly. have some sympathy for the person buying the presents D:

Olympics! Nooo! He lost! Our one last hope of getting a gold medal! Beaten by Lin Dan with a 21-12 and 21-8! Lee Chong Wei! What happened!!

But Lin Dan was kinda hot..

just look at those lips..

;x laaa~ lulz.

Adam Sevani is dating Miley Cyrus!! ARGHH!! Didn't she just announced that she was all heartbroken because Nick Jonas dumped her? WHY!

I love your car, Lime. Marry me.

I meant the car; not you.

MOE is Ministry of Education? Wasn't it a fandom word? D: bawww.

Trials in a few days. I should get studying. But I'm lazy..

Hey look! I finished the Rubik's Cube!

P.S. that's not my hand =.= i use lotion, tyvm.

Alright, till next year.

With lots of love!

It's opposite day, twiddle.

Intelligence Quotient

2008-08-03T19:05:00.016+08:00

Took a TA cube test at International High IQ Society out of boredom..

I've done this test before when I was like.. 12. Same site.

I scored 114, which is still above average but still. Dropped by 6 points D:

I blame my lack of general knowledge.

So anyway, we're always talking about celebrities being dumb and the odds. No thanks to Lindsay Lohan and Jessica Simpsons -rolls eyes-

But some celebs are actually pretty smart.

Take Natalie Portman for example. ..you know, the Star Wars co-star. She graduated high school with a 4.0 and headed off to Harvard where she received a Bachelor’s Degree in psychology. She attended Hebrew University on a graduate level and is fluent in Hebrew, French and Japanese.

And Alicia Keys. Even her looks says "smart". She graduated high school at the age of 16 and also served as Valedictorian. But she gave up her scholarship to Columbia University to pursue a career in music. Oh, and like, she's singing the new James Bond movie theme song with White Stripes! I read that Amy Winehouse wasn't too pleased she got rejected without even a second thought x] Poor Lucifer's wife..

Then there's Shakira. Despite her avaricious he's actually one with a bloody IQ of 140. Nicole Kidman is right next to her with an IQ of 132. We should stop thinking stereotype now. I mean, just because Paris Hilton is dumb doesn't mean everyone else is. Did anyone know her hobby was.. ice-hockey? -raises eyebrow-

Speaking of stupid celebs, my brain diverged to another Disney actress with racy photos, Vanessa Hudgens. She recently let slip in an interview that Joe Jonas from Jonas Brothers is dating Chelsea Staub? Yea, I don't know who she is either. Wikipedia ftw.

mhmm..

A star of Minuteman? -tilts head in confusion- Bratz? ..wait, I think I've heard of that.

Remember how I always said Jesse McCartney was gay? Yes, I'm aware I called a lot of artists gay, and they probably are. Specially John Mayer.

Anyway, McCartney said in an interview with a paparazzi from E!Online, Marc Malkin that he does not sleep on anybody else's pillow except his >.>;

Just look at that turn-off smile..

Reminds me of one of those Kids President sorta campaign.

Btw, Gossip Girls has stopped airing. It's now a web-only series. Watch it only at cwtv.com.

And God forbid me from laughing everytime I hear the name Shia LeBeouf..

I can't help it!

P.S. Ryan Seacrest does not have aquaphobia! He's still swimming! The 3-hole wound from a cat-sized shark won't scare the guy! Gosh!

~~Even sharkie wants a piece of him~~..~

Harriet Arnberg

2008-08-02T22:22:00.007+08:00

Gosh, she's so pretty, she looks like a 3D animation!

I really respect models like her. They're not too thin and not all about looking skanky. She's like.. just right! There's the sadistic look, the sexy look, the innocent look.. everything! And she doesn't over do it. Her photographer, Joseline Janson seriously knows what she's doing. The colour contrast and angles are all so amazing!

Might make a header out of the pictures later.. after asking for permission.

tamadenaku..

2008-08-02T15:57:00.005+08:00

I can't imagine I didn't hear you. I can't pretend it didn't happen. I can't just let it go. But I can't just stand by and watch those tears roll down your face. As much as think it was a reasonable decision for the one who made you cry, it hurts me to see you broken up inside. No matter what wrong you did, I still feel so torn to see you in pain. Torn between two decisions, between who you should let first on your list.

But what can I say? I'm just a third party member with no objectives in the matter. I'm hardly involved. All I can do is say soothing words that sound wrong even in my own ears. How can I tell someone that everything is alright when I don't even know it myself. To not give hope is to not disappoint.. But it wouldn't hurt to give encouragement, right? Especially if she has chosen to believe that you will lend her a shoulder to lean on.

It's not like I don't understand the pain that she's going through. The feeling of watching everything you've built since you've been born, fall apart and yet, you don't know the reason why. The feeling of thinking you've lost all your friends when you were doing something beneficial, if not, harming no one. The feeling of having to choose between two of your most beloved people. The feeling of trying to figure what is wrong and what is right when you clearly know the answer. The feeling of losing hope, love and the reason to continue fighting..

And yet, after going through all this unnecessary pain, I still cannot put everything into words to console someone who's probably going through the exact same thing. Yet, whatever I've said between your deafeningly silent sobbing were not advice but empty optimistic phrases.

Someone shoot me.

So You Think You Can Dance 2 Finale - Msia

2008-08-01T20:36:00.014+08:00

This is live so you probably won't understand much if you don't chase this reality series. It'll only make you see stars so I suggest you don't read it..

I'm so psyched!

Started with the Top 20 minus the Top 4 dancing in white with Janet Jackson's Feedback, followed by Celia Cruz's Gotta Get Down (Sly is so sexy..), then Requiem for a Dream, a Lord of the rings OST, and finally, Senang Senang by Zainal Abidin who sang his infamous Orak Arik after the Top 4 which consist of Black & Sim and Hong & CC, were introduced.

BLACK LOOKS SO HOT IN WHITE!! ..ironically xD

His real name is like.. Ng Kar Fei >.>;

Date of Birth: 30 December 1983, 25 years old
Place of Birth: Kuala Lumpur
Education: SPM
Occupation: Freelance dancer
Type of Dancer: Hip Hop

Introducing the judges: Pat Ibrahim, Ramli Ibrahim and Judimar Hernandez.

Now playing flashbacks of the past episodes. Good and bad.

COME ON! DANCE ALREADY!! >__<

OMG! SIM AND CC dancing with stripper chairs! Music by Christina Aguilera, Ain't No Other Man.

Ramli said it was like Anita Moi and Anita Sarawak together.. NUHHU! It was not good flow! There was no character, Judy!! It was kinda skanky--BLACK!! AHH!! ♥ !

Omg. They're so gay xD

Hong: I can't believe I have to hold his fingers and do his chacha?
Black: I love you Hong -heart sounds-
Hong: My last message to Black, can you eat some chewing gum before you dance, arh?

MEN IN BLACK MATRIX! SEXY! They carried each other! cuteee!!

Yes, Judy. I agree. I wish it never stopped. I can keep watching and watching too..

Wait, shit. I didn't catch what the song was. ARGH! So distracted!

Oh! They did the scary black goth dance again! The one Black did with Farah last time! Cept she kinda sucked. This time Sim and Hong did it. Judy. It wasn't one level higher than Black and Farah's. It was only because Farah sucked. LEAVE BLACK ALONE! >.<

No Air, Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown! Black and CC! It was actually done by Hong and Sara during the Top 20's.

Last scene was so... I'm so jealous of CC too, Aishah Sinclair.. ;__; When you look me in the eyesss, tell me that you love mee!

I kinda agree with Ramli that it was kinda not that good, not that innocent.. But innocence isn't every CC and Black material.

Ouu!! Solo performances :D !

Special guest performance, Shila. First runner-up for One In A Million Season 2. Singing Bebaskanlah with Kat-Fariz and Alam.. darn short guy, but the winner for Season 1. He's now in a show called Alam Story, 10pm Sunday 8TV.

Gemuruh by Faizal Tahir, group dance. Urban costumes. ~~Black has a hot ass.~~ It's funny to see Hong and CC trying to smile when they're panting like mad xD

The thing about the dancers.. They have the most horrible English. Ever.

Dancing with In My Bed by Rain, is Hong; with a rose. He threw his jacket! Cute wittle boi >< !! So poetic and dramatic and beautiful and passionate and just.. lovely. Hong: Dancers are most versatile and multipurpose artists on stage

LOL xD

Next is CC. Her English is not half bad.. Magelena by Siergo. Obviously a salsa. That's what her legs were made for. She's so long and tall o_o And shiny dress! And then bird/crow sounds from the audience screaming C. And yes. It was kinda rough, Ramli, agree. Judy is kinda right. I'm getting bored of watching her shake it salsa-style. Pat, you lame crap ._. Of course it's very her. That's the only thing she can do >.>

And yes, her fanbase is like a freaking football stadium o_O

CC: It's not about the money but about the experience.. (or both).

Omg. She sounds like me in the end x_o; with the high squeaky "and.. yea!".

Black can dance with anything.. Black is the new pink?! WHAT?! o__o

Black: Keep me more stronger.
Black: Our friendship always stick together.

...

OMG! PINK PANTHER OST! xDD SO CUTE! SO BRILLIANT! LMAO! screaams x]]!! PINK SUIT!

Pat in the pink suit, Ramli? ..mhmm. The making of a superstar!! wooo! yea! Yeap, Black is a perfectionist, Judy. Yes, Pat! Borned entertainer! Exactly crown clown!

Shit. Here comes the horrible English.

Black: I dunno who will be the one to win tonight but I'm sure I'm the one you're looking for! I want to special thanks to my family, friends and all my supporters there. Without you, I cant stand here, I can be here tonight.

Black: Beside famous, I learn a lot of things in can help me in my career. I'm a commercial dancer. So I want to prove that a commercial dancer can also become a dancer artist.

It's not typoes. It's exactly what he said. All the grammatical errors included.

Sim is up at last with.. a funky costume o_O In The Garden by Dolores. String trick. Awhsum.

Ramli.. Wrong peribahasa. And yes, cute for a change for Sim, Judy. Eww. Please don't do a lala face, Sim. And yes! Berani, Pat! Something different and awhsum! Lovely!

Sim: Tonight I want talk, I really want to talk. I want to a prove to Malysia. I want to a prove that I'm is the best. Everytime I is on the stage, it is the best.

Sim: For me now, before this competition, my life already change now. My new family. The top 20, you know.

See what I mean? >.>

hahaa. The musical by Top 20. So cute. Pelvic thrust! o: Raymond.. RAYMOND HAS MOWHOWK! OMG! FAWCK! screaaams!! sexy janitor!

Sly, still as sexy as ever in yellow collar shirt, black slack and black jacket.

Who will win?

Pat - dunno who.
Judy - has a favourite.. HONG!
Ibrahim - SIM!
Pat - asked again xD chose CC for charisma.

RESULTS.

CC WON.

... no comment.

Solar Eclipse

2008-08-01T19:16:00.005+08:00

Who saw the total eclipse today?!

I didn't! Wtf noooo! ><

Slave-driver

2008-08-01T17:54:00.020+08:00

So I'm good at computer graphic.

Not to brag.

But seriously!

NO NEED TO ASK ME TO DO YOUR HOMEWORK FOR YOU D< !!

-glares-

But then again, I do free headers and lays..

...

Should start putting up a price.

My first sad attempt for an advertisement.

Should've stick with Barbie.

Heather Matarazzo is getting married. Boy, she looks scary in that pic.. You do know who she is, right?

Come on! Such a familiar face!

Hint: Princess Diaries.

You know.. the best friend?

-flicks your lightbulb-

..hopelessss

Katy Perry ain't getting no kiss from Lifestyle Condom's spokesgirl, Miley Cyrus during Sunday's Teen Choice Awards so those of you waiting to catch some lesbian action in a kids event can keep dreaming. Cyrus has said in an interview after hearing Perry's intentions about snagging a kiss from said Disney star, that no such thing will occur.

Darn. D:

For those who haven't see her disguisting pictures (there are some in Nab's blog), here it is:

Does this spell innocent-i-love-god virgin to you?

And I don't get this picture. It makes no fawcking sense. Are kids still looking up to her? Are parents still calling her a role model?

But then again, she's Miley Cyrus. Just another girl who thinks skanky is sexy. Mhmm.

How dare they compare her with Amanda Bynes.

Shia LeBeouf has been released from ~~prison~~ the hospital with a broken wrist after crashing into another car and rolling an F-150. On his passenger seat was co-star, Isabel Lucas (wonder why she was being druggie with him, mhmm~) who broke her nails. fap.

Pity director Michael Bay and Steven Spielberg for having to postpone the premier of Tramsformers 2: Revenge of The Fallen. Imagine all the millions of dollars wasted everyday. tssk tssk. There goes the $600mil target~ which was also attempted by Christopher Nolan, director of The Dark Knight.. unsuccessfully, of course xP

Titanic is still on the top charts with $1-bloody-billion. Imagine this. Only in North America, this movie has already earned $601-freaking-million.

I'm suspecting it's because Kate Winslet was like.. naked in there. As a form of art. And Leornado DiCaprio was pretty hot there too. Although most people seem to be enjoying his death in Blood Diamond xD

Why am I typing all this crap?

I have no idea.

Maybe it's cause I'm broke.

Again.

But nothing special really happened in school 'cause two people, specifically Andria and Ozy, turned off their lightbulbs >.> At least Carmen's light was ~~bright~~ eye-blinding, sigh =.=

Fawck Streamyx

2008-07-30T13:20:00.005+08:00

FUCK! I EDITED A FUCKING LONG POST AND THEN I GOT DISCONNECTED!

ARGH!

But like, piggyback ride anyway!

x] gacktxhyde is ♥

Net Divorce

2008-07-29T15:54:00.012+08:00

Times really have changed:

It's possible that Gary Dean, a Lancashire businessman, has discovered a new use for the internet. Dean has set up deandivorce.com, a "standalone website ... so that the truth about my divorce settlement is available to anyone who wants to know about it".

It's all curiously heartfelt; he insists that he isn't sour about the deal, or angry with his ex-wife(Helen Dean), but merely want to stop gossips misrepresenting him as a "greedy, tight, ruthless bastard who abandoned my wife and children, walking off with millions and leaving my family almost destitute".

- Sean Clarke

Other sources: Daily mail

LOL!

I don't know why but this really tickles me blue x]

I mean, what next? Net marriage proposal? Wedding? Cyber babies!!

..so anyway, Johnny Depp has once again involve himself in another kiddy movie: Alive in Wonderland. He stars as the Mad Hatter. In 3D. hmm..

Dear Hannah Montana star, Miley Cyrus, God I hate her..

She's being offered a job as a spokesperson after the final season of the forementioned Disney production has come to an end. Lifestyle Condoms, yes CONDOMS, has offered to pay 1-bloody-million dollars to hire her as the newest purveyor of prophylactics.

...

IS THE MANAGER OF LIFESTYLES OUT OF HIS BLOODY MIND!? The girl is 15! Hello!? You can't just ask a 15 year old DISNEY girl to walk around promoting CONDOMS!

But at the least, she didn't accept the offer.

LifeStyles didn't give up though. Quote: "The condom dispenser is willing to sweeten the deal: When she comes of legal age, the company is prepared to offer Cyrus a lifetime supply of condoms."

...

Btw, remember I mentioned my comp broke down?

My dad offered to buy me a new one.

He was gonna buy me one anyway. But he planned to buy it as a Straight A's gift after I get my PMR results; that is if I get it.

..and I rejected.

REJECTED!!

THIS IS HOW SERIOUS I AM ABOUT FOCUSING ON MY PMR!

D<

I have a confession to make.

2008-07-28T17:26:00.004+08:00

I'm actually.. a boy.

...

What!

You don't believe me?!

Fine.

-long pause-

For all you know, I could be transy.

-another long pause-

But I'm bored!!

-screams in agony-

I WANT MY PHONE BACK!

PRONTO!

This is torture!

I should sue my parents for child mental abuse.

ARGHH.

Leave out all the rest

2008-07-28T16:30:00.004+08:00

2 more days to go!

..wait.

I mean, 77 days to go.

Or 82 days!

Freedom!

Then death in November.

♪ When my time comes
Forget the wrongs that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest.. ♪

R.I.P.

Linkin Park ftew - for the emo world!

But what's with Chester Bennington's mustache though.

And them beards! Fakies?

I like David Cook's facial hair though.

Rosli Dhobi is so hot.

♪ When you look me in the eyes
Tell me that ~~I'll pang sai~~ you love me
Everything's alright ♪

Sorry.

History makes me high.

And happy.

Exams make me happy too.

I have to sit far far away from those people who always pick on me for entertainment.

Wonderrrsss~

And wtf is 'air beriak'? Gosh. Sounds so disturbing. Stupid peribahasa.

I'm gonna fail.. failing BM.

And History.

And Moral.

And.. well, maybe not civic.

I am a pretty civilized and benevolent person.

-smiles innocently-

Errors

2008-07-26T16:56:00.007+08:00

I destroy computers. First my own and now the laptop.

Cyber lord will send me to hell.

Exam starts Monday.

Which chapter is coming out again?

How do you pronounce hypocrite?

Ohh.. the Art folio.. now where did they go?

PMR in 79 days.. or less.

What day is it?

Oh my God. Wearing the school uniform on a Saturday is like wearing a coat during Summer.

Not enough sleep makes the world go blue.. or green.. or was it pink?

I'm pretty sure it's pink of health, not red.

What's red-letter day?

How do you read this word?

Lets see.. 1+1 is 3.. maybe 2 and a half. One dad, one mom, here comes the baby!

I don't wanna get married.

The generation is changing.

Women doing business and guys vaining themselves in the mirrors to impress God knows who.

Gosh, I hate his hair..

On second thought, I want a house-band!

My son should be named Junior. Or Jonah.

No wait, that should be my husband's name.

Eating seaweed makes me feel like a cow.

..moo.

YOU TWO-FACED COW!

Uhm.. yeah. See?

This post isn't random. Megan's influence. Darn.

maericccc. 14 days anniversary! hurrah!

What's the difference between "green and white" and "emerald and pearl"?

I feel so un-chick-like. What the hell is a mauve; dictionary.com

urbandictionary.com owns.

I miss my brother.

Too bad we're not blood related.

I just reload my phone with 50 bucks yesterday!

Oh shucks. 30 bucks left to survive for the month.

Levi's should make jeans with deeper pockets.

Some people actually hate taking bags around and prefer to put everything in their pockets.

Phone, money, IC, phone, student card, coins.. sweet wrappers?

Why do people hang those air fresheners in their closet?

Smells better than moth balls but still.. pick something less.. intense?

Think of those poor souls who have to lend your closet.

-sniffs- MAN ODOURR. my jackettt..

Men should spray on less Rexona.

Cologne is obviously better than deodorant.

This chair is too tall.. But it spins! weee! ♥

What's fiercer than a dog?

Miao..

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY, GAYDDO! It's almost December!!

Do you know how I got this scar? -licks lips-

Note to self: Do not agitate people.

..that's possible?

Say no to say no to drugs! ..or not.

If I was a guy, I wanna be named Lex. Not Alex. Lex. L-E-X. LEX.

Or maybe Levi.

White hair isn't silver hair. Neither is gray.

I wanna be a doctor.

OMG. BLOOD. faints.

Uhh.. ICU?

I have hemophobia!

No.. I haven't reached my menopause.

I HAVEN'T STOP GROWING! JUST WATCH ME GET TALLER!

AND I'M ALMOST 5 FEET 3, MIND YOU!

Is that an orange?

No, it's a grapefruit, you idiot.

Serious?

No, I was joking.

...

~~I'm perfectly sane.~~

Only insane people talk to themselves.

Am I right?

Duhh.

Shit. Tomorrow's Sunday!

Him again! ARGH! Since when did he switch classes! I switched because he was in the old class!

NOOO! ><

~~Andria has a miang smile.~~

-looks around.. hides in a corner-

Mooom! They're bullying me again!

In chorus now, here we go: Bullified, defriend, tomorrow defriend, go talk to the passerbyers, ~~something something~~ 016 so you can feel more shi fuk?

♪ When I grow up I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star, I wanna be in movies
When I grow up I wanna see the world, drive nice cars, I wanna have groupies ♪

Not boobies?

Do you know who's the real bitch he-- MY HAIR!!

She's the Man is a must watch movie. 13th time and still running!

CHANNING TATUM!! ♥

Okhay, that's enough.

Bye.

Oh yes, and my phone has been, is about to, actually, be confiscated.

And shut up.

That was not the only important message in this post.

...

Procrastination

2008-07-23T17:12:00.001+08:00

is the new black.

I CAN'T CONCENTRATE. WTF. THERE GOES GEO! WOO!

Pondering..

2008-07-23T15:41:00.006+08:00

Being a woman is so darn troublesome.. I keep thinking about how I should act. If I try to stay away and not get involved, people start talking behind my back. If I get too involved, it'll be like; No matter what I do, it always turns out to be something flawed. No matter what I say, when it goes wrong, the blame is always on me. No matter how hard I try, the result doesn't change. No matter what I wear, people still think I look like a slut. I don't wear make up. I don't wear strapless clothes. I don't wear micro mini skirts. I wear long pants.. and long shirts.. with long sleeves.. and Converse shoes.. or flats.. not heels.

I don't do lala nor emo poses. I don't take revealing pictures. I rarely take any pictures at all. I know I have a very lolita face but it's not like I purposely faked it out.. I just do. It's not my fault people with my kind of face tarnished the name of this kind of face. I don't flirt. I don't talk cheap.. Do I? Or it is my pitch? The tone? The accent? What is it? What's wrong with me? Why are others allowed to wear those kind of clothing and still be treated fairly but I can't even wear a pair of shorts without being called a whore? I really don't understand.

And no, he wasn't the first one who's said it to me. I've heard worse. Far worse. It just never strike me that someone will call me that when I'm out with a group of girls wearing.. ~~I'll take a picture when the shirt is ironed~~. So what will they think if I wear a more seductive outfit, talk more avariciously and shop around with a group of men, being the sole girl?

Don't answer.

I don't wanna know.

...

WHY SO SERIOUS?

I'm not sad! I'm just slightly confused and messed up. I'm okhay! Seriously! Why so serious!

loll.

&And Heath -- uhm, I meant Harvey Dent, does have a scary mutated face! Leave me alone!

Prank SMS

2008-07-22T15:51:00.004+08:00

Yes, I'm getting pissed. Is anyone else getting this or is it just me?

Like,

Quote from +60146287333
Hey muffin, how was your day? :)

mudereffer.

I mean, seriously. It's so annoyinggg.
Get one everyday from a different number!
Is my number that common? gahh.

...

But uhm, if I know you, then uhm.. whoops?

xD

It wasn't his fault.. It was mine.

2008-07-21T15:11:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry I have a high pitch voice.
I'm sorry I was borned with it.
I'm sorry I came on Saturday.
I'm sorry for coming between the two of you.
I'm sorry he thought I was "cheap" and had a fake voice.
I'm sorry he actually thought I needed to feign a cute voice.
I'm sorry but honestly, I hate my voice but it's not like I can help it.
I'm sorry I didn't like the fact that he judged me.
I'm sorry I felt like he was being contradicting.
I'm sorry I still can't figure out what I did him wrong.
I'm sorry for not remembering what I said to him.
I'm sorry I barely said anything to him.
I'm sorry he didn't like me.
I'm sorry I thought we were friends.
I'm sorry I expected you to stand up for me.
I'm sorry I tried to challenge our friendship and your love for him.
I'm sorry for not noticing our friendship was so frail.
I'm sorry he was a better friend than me.
I'm sorry that I was not worth standing up for as he is.
I'm sorry for not reading between the lines.
I'm sorry for overestimating what we had between us.
I'm sorry I cried.
I'm sorry I felt offended.
I'm sorry I felt insulted.
I'm sorry I was a cheap whore.
I'm sorry I had no idea what I did to gain that title.
I'm sorry for making this this sound like I'm holding a grudge; I'm not.
I'm sorry I can't just let it go because I thought we were more than that.
I'm sorry I couldn't avoid you as you sit right beside.
I'm sorry I ignored you.
I'm sorry I couldn't tell you straight to your face that it hurts.
I'm sorry I couldn't mend that hole in my heart fast enough to stop the tears.
I'm sorry I asked you to tell me what he said.
I'm sorry I don't care what he thinks about me.
I'm sorry I was offended by your response.
I'm sorry you thought about me that way.
I'm sorry I'm typing this.
I'm sorry if this sounds sarcastic.
I'm sorry for not being sincere enough.
I'm sorry that this will harm our friendship.
I'm sorry for feeling hurt.
I'm sorry for being emotional.
I'm sorry I was your friend.

Next is,

I'm sorry I felt annoyed talking to you.
I'm sorry I felt like you were trying to be me.
I'm sorry for not giving you what you want.
I'm sorry I couldn't give it because I don't have it.
I'm sorry I don't have it because my friend haven't given it to me.
I'm sorry my explanation doesn't seem to get to you.
I'm sorry I cried in class.
I'm sorry I sobbed in your shirt.
I'm sorry I looked like an attention whore.
I'm sorry I looked like I have a "Pity Me" sign on my forehead.
I'm sorry but that wasn't my intention.
I'm sorry for not being able to control my tears.
I'm sorry I use sadness and disappointment to replace my anger.
I'm sorry I can't express myself as well as I can online.
I'm sorry for my sad attempts to put on a false facade.
I'm sorry I don't like him.
I'm sorry I cause a misunderstanding.
I'm sorry I can't choose sides.
I'm sorry I love my friends.
I'm sorry I needed a hug.
I'm sorry I'm short.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry you have a lousy friend like me.
I'm sorry for lying.
I'm sorry I couldn't handle the matter.
I'm sorry I was the cause of your breakup.
I'm sorry I said "Do what you think is right".
I'm sorry I don't remember doing any against my morals.
I'm sorry I despise that man.
I'm sorry I sided her.
I'm sorry she was my best friend.
I'm sorry I didn't know what to do.
I'm sorry for going out on Saturday with someone else.
I'm sorry but I really regretted it.
I'm sorry I didn't call.
I'm sorry my phone was credit dry.
I'm sorry for being in denial.
I'm sorry for not admitting I really like him.
I'm sorry I can't admit it.
I'm sorry I like being single.
I'm sorry relationships don't work out for me.
I'm sorry but you have to understand.
I'm sorry my life sucks.

My apologies.

Disturbance

2008-07-20T15:22:00.004+08:00

Advice for those below 160cm, when going out with Su Ann or Ame, high heels are seriously a must.

Even for guys.

Cough.

But thank God for thick-sole school shoes! woo~ ♥

-18 Bloggers Beware

2008-07-18T17:16:00.003+08:00

You're not allowed to say 'Fuck' anymore.

oshucks. buhoo. baww. fawck off.

Burn in Embarrassment

2008-07-18T16:18:00.008+08:00

GAHHH >__< WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME TODAY?!

First, I went into the wrong car after school. I mean, it's the right type and right color and I couldn't be arsed to see the number plate but like WHY ARE THERE SO MANY HONDA CIVICS ON THE STREETS?! But I'm not used to waiting for my dad's car so it's pretty understandable.. But apparently, the driver didn't think so. He's probably one of the dudes who lived in that white condo in front of my school.. Huhh. Never wish to see him again.

Then at lunch in some random coffee shop, I banged.. yes BANGED into someone right in the chest. THANK GOD I WASN'T HOLDING THE PLATE! You'd expect this person to fall back and curse at my face seeing as he has this.. ah long look. But he didn't. Cause despite my epic strength and balance(hahaa), I fell backwards and my lovely ass hit the stupid table with a thud. Fawck. I would've apologized since it was technically my fault.. or not. Since he's such an ~~idiot~~ unlucky person to stand so close behind me. But tergamak he snickered right in my face!! I'M SO GOING TO FIND HIS HOUSE AND SPLASH RED PAINT! =__=

Oh, but the dude's friend has really hot hair. Probably a hairstylist. Hot hair = Silver hair.

♪ stop and staree ♪

And then I came home and went blog surfing.. then landed on someone's blog and saw the name of an old classmate. I should've noticed that not everyone who has the same name is the same person, and should've done a little bit research first. But I had accidentally typed in her cbox before I could figure out her full name.. which didn't match my ex-classmate's. Shit.

I HOPE SHE DOESN'T FIND ME.

....

OMG. -crawls into a hole and buries self-

Minor ones are like how I called my dad's number by accident, thinking it was Jaw and then calling Ozy at 3.33pm when she's still at school; headdesk.

Neeway, hopefully nothing stupid happens tomorrow, considering I'll be out the whole day.. I can't wait to see my little grandniece again!

Now what to wear.. I totally forgot about to think what I was gonna wear. All that was in my mind was yukata, yukata, yukata. Not Miss JC OOi's "you kata, i dengar", kthxbai.

Huhh.. will anyone think I'm weird if I wear that to Queens? I mean, I'm gonna wear it to the Bon Odori anyway. Unless it rains. Mud is going nowhere near my lovely Japanese.. shoes. Whatever you call it.

Well anyway, gonna go vain myself and find a shirt to wear. Or I can go make some ice-cream with melted chocolate tops instead.. ♥ yumm.

Cat-turday

2008-07-15T17:28:00.005+08:00

I thought I should update a bit.. since I'm free anyway. Having to manage two blogs and a site is HARD! >< oh yes, and a forum.. huhh. What was the link again..

So I tried to tie a necktie. And failed. Miserably. Like accidentally-choked-myself kinda miserably. I even tried surfing for a few sites for tips D: It always turn out like.. a chunk of cloth. But the ones in the pictures were so awhsum v(;__;)v

-bawwwws-

But like, anyway, caturday. Yes, it's spelt like that. Curtesy of cat-day.

OMG. EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING ON THIS SATURDAY. ALL AT ONCE! DARRRNN!!

♪ wake up wake up on a saturday night~ ♪

..or morning. NOOO. GO BACK TO SLEEP. GAHH.

Seriously. I'm gonna go crazy. I hope it rains and the stupid bon odori is cancelled. So I won't get kidnapped there and get grounded by my parents if I come home late.. or never return at all, gasp.

So uhm, the YE sale. I'd say support MGS and buy their products but they kinda suck so uhh.. yeah. Which is why I promised Puan Tan C.E. I'll buy that Literature Guidebook on the day itself so I won't go home empty handed xD

Sighh..

It's gonna feel like a working day, I swear. I mean, isn't shopping in Queens for 10 hours straight a little.. I don't know, OVERBOARD? =__= But Ozy seems to think it's fine.

Bahhh.. I should cancel something.

...

Or not.

-is too nice- :D

Sidenote, I totally blame Ozy for not coming to school today. I have to suffer her share of fruitless teasing. God forbid Andria and Carmen to have such creative [rolls eyes] minds. Seriously. All I ever did was like J-pop/rock. And yet due to this fact, for two months straight, I have yet to see a day when his name is not mentioned.

-headdesks-

Life is so unfair.

Just got reminded. Recycling. I swear I'm gonna find a solid excuse next year and quit this stupid pose as the Green Project leader. I downright refuse to take this pose once more to add to my 3 years of arranging trash. Fucking environment. I mean, NOBODY CARES. STOP BEING SUCH AN ATTENTION WHORE, YOU BLOODY MOTHER NATURE!!

Uhh, cough.

Think happy thoughts. HAPPPYYY!!

Yes, I'm insane. You have a problem with that? It's not like you've never been like this before.

I bet you haven't.

Cause you're probably too young to have gone through puberty, so old that your ovaries sagged or you just don't have one.

.___.

I know, I'm typing bull.

WHATEVERRR.

Last Update

2008-07-07T17:31:00.009+08:00

For now.

I need to concentrate on my studies(specially BM, History and Geography). I need to get a top ten position before my parents murder me and lock me out of the house. Seriously. My dad's been tight ever since I told him I want to go for Taylor's Law School in KL. Dreams will remain a dream if I don't work hard. And I should start now. Even though some people won't stop telling me that PMR is just fucking white peas >.> Well fuck you, I'm stupid. kthxbye.

[loll. On the spot typing:

Mom: Su Lin, dinner's readdy. Faster.
Me: Huhh..
Mom: stop staring at the computer screen and come out.
Me: Hold on..
Mom: What are you doing?
Me: Blogging..
Mom: Blogging?
Me: ..Jie, tell mom what's blogging..
Sis: Blogging.. is for ke po people who are cia pa siau eng.]

Anyway, my 100, well, 98 days hiatus starts today xD Won't update until something nice comes up. Probably YE weeks.. If I decide to go.. 'Cause I'm not sure they'll sell anything worth buying. I mean, they're selling some piece of paper with two magnets, or so they called a paperclip for a freaking 1.. something. NOT BUYING. Support maybe la but not beneficial la.. We need a more creative head. Ame should be able to rock it next year ♥ woo~

Puan Cheah called me her computer technician today. 'Cause Avienne suggested I should fix it cause the stupid sound system in the computer laboratory was broken.. again. So I went searching everywhere for the mistake. But it was working 'cause ironically, when windows start up, the stupid starting sound effect was there. Speaking of that, some idiot created two Student accounts with the same fucking name. DUMB BLONDE. So I signed into the Teacher's account, which thank God I know the pass word xD, and deleted the shit. Not sure if i deleted the important one or the pseudo one though. Lalalala~

Then I heard whispering noises from the speakers. No, not ghost whisperer -rolls eyes- So I suspected that the wire was probably loose. VOLAAH~ Fucking cheapskate school! It was so loose that even an ant can pull it out! So Kok Lynn and I had to hold the damn thing through out the lesson >__>

And I need to stop tripping on nothing. Although I'm sure I tripped on Avienne's foot.. But I can't be sure cause I have a tendency of either bumping into someone/thing or tripping on flat ground ¬¬ I blame the shoes, no duhh.

I notice how this month seems to be emo month. Everyone's going through something paranoia and friendship/relationship problems. But life doesn't end that easily so i hope everyone will stand up tall and move on. Cause time doesn't wait and the more pain you receive, the more mature you get~

Probationary prefects. Well, almost everyone that applied got chosen. Mostly Form3s. Though I don't really get why some people would wanna be prefects 'cause they'll never book their own friends anyway. Favouritism will bound to happen and you'll have to get stuck between duty or friendship. Which is something I don't wanna go through ever again.

Like the class trip. I have sixth sense and God knows I'm fucking psychic when it comes to this kind of things. Something terrible is gonna happen. World War 3, khay. Internal battle anyway. And I'm not taking sides. Atas pagar for life. 'Cause.. Well, I'm trying to think out of the box and will say that everyone has their own point of view and has their freedom to think however they want. There's no way to restrict one's mind so what comes out from their mouths might not be what's in their heart. So that answers why I don't wanna go loll. Don't feel like repeating it over and over again to everyone.

Anyway, the prefects thing, dunno if they just wanna show off or what la but the ones chosen this year are kinda.. playful? But I don't blame them. 'Cause most of the people from 3B are 78% rebellious in a way. I just hope this doesn't build a status wall between any of us. And I don't like people who take advantage of their double standards so.. yeah. Hopefully nothing changes.

I know there's a lot of benefits in being a prefect and I'm not saying it's easy to be one and that I can be one anytime I want. I'm not that showy, please don't misunderstand. I'm just saying there's more than meets the eye?

Mhmm.. cold ribena with a slice of lemon.. <-- random.

Sudoku Competition btw. Primary and Secondary. Prize is to Hong Kong Disneylang. Why Am I promoting this? I have no idea! Woo! xD
_____

God, being a woman is hard. I'm growing zits from all that stress and my mom's all yappy so she took me to The Natural Source and bought this darn clenser last week. Then a toner. Then a moisturizer. Then that fucking.. whatever it's called. MY GOD. IT'S JUST A FACE. WHAT'S WITH ALL THAT CRAP!? I'M GONNA GET WRINKLES ANYWAY! GOSH.

Oh, and you know those exercise balls? Like.. two times smaller than gym balls? For exercise? Yeah. I asked Jasse to buy it for me cause he works in Pragin and you know what he bought for me? A fucking beach ball. Yeah khay. >___>

-hugs- xD ily.

Lastly, today was Ma'am Irene's last day. NO MORE PHONETICS! WOOO! But I'll miss her. Even though she's all "You should go on a debate team 'cause you're so argumentative and talk a lot" .__. It couldn't be helped.. I blame Su Ann and Ozy. Seriously. it's because I'm sitting between them that I get stuck in the middle of conversations -coughcough- Specially about.. the RAIN in PFS..~

Wait.. Oh right. Ozy said he saw my blog post on the chromatography thing xDD -whistles away-

Sidenote, if anyone wants a job after PMR or in November/December, contact me. We're up for promoters under Canon. 16 and above please. Unless I know you personally and you're confident that you look 17 ._. Like Su Ann. Can't believe she managed to sneak into the cinema and watched Wanted! Why is tht show +18SG anyway? It's Angelina Jolie for God's sake. MRS. BOTTOM PITT. GARHGH. Sigh. Nevermind. Cetak rompak DVD ftw ;x

Blogthings

2008-07-05T17:46:00.005+08:00

Your PMS Disaster Level: High

You are definitely a PMS disaster!

At least you're only scary a few days of the month.

Are You a PMS Disaster?

EXCUSE ME!?

You Act Like You Are 26 Years Old

You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life.

You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up.

The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

What Age Do You Act?

I'M FIFTEEN, MUTHER FAWCKER.

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone.

You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.

Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

How Well Do You Understand Men?

Why thank you. Where's my cert?

Your Vocabulary Score: B+

You have a zealous love for the English language, and many find your vocabulary edifying.

Don't fret that you didn't get every word right, your vocabulary can be easily ameliorated!

How's Your Vocabulary?

Huhh..

Your Vocabulary Score: A

Congratulations on your multifarious vocabulary!

You must be quite an erudite person.

How's Your Vocabulary?

That's better.. xD

You Are 0% Homophobic

You're open minded, tolerant, and accepting.

And you're not homophobic in the least :-)

Are You Homophobic?

Pswah yeah uhhuh! D<

Your Mind is NC-17 Rated

You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap.

If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you!

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

xDD I knew you were expecting that but sadly, I chose all the answers that I know will lead to that ;P

Your Mind is PG-13 Rated

Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy.

You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

That's the real one~

Twilight

2008-07-05T15:28:00.008+08:00

Okhay. I know it's an overrated book and I'm not usually one to follow a trend but hey, people are actually giving big credit to vampire stories. Honestly. Even those chick lit readers and Meg Cabot fans have fallen in love with Twilight. I understand how they'll love Shopaholic but TWILIGHT!? Yes, I'm a small fan of Sophie Kinsella. The way she writes inspires me. I cry a lot reading her books. Sad to say, my eyes only watered like.. twice reading Twilight.

After finishing this 400+ page book in like.. one day? I've come to a conclusion that it's very corny ¬¬ I don't get why people are so into it. Such a fairytale starting with fairytale ending. It kinda made no sense how this nobody can become a somebody so quickly and also the way she responded when she found out the truth. I mean, logically, no matter how amazing this someone is, she'd at least have to be terrified and cower a little before getting over the fact and decide if she still wants him or move on. But Stephenie Meyer made her seem so unaffected and jolly and still so playful as her reaction after she had been told. That kinda affected my interest to read her other book, The Host in fear that it'll turn out to a corny mushy piece.

Minus that fact, the storyline was moving too fast. The rush in finishing the story was there. It was a bit draggy at first then the next moment, there's this tracker and Alice and I got lost half way. had to reread. Cause everything was from her opinion that it was kinda hard to tell. There wasn't a fighting scene. Everything that happened around her when she's unconscious or whatever was left behind and we all just have to pretend they fought as Mr Perfect Edward Cullen saved the day. I also didn't like so of their mushy speeches. Too surreal.

I'm being a little bias to this book but you can't exactly blame me cause a lot of people seem to like it and I guess I had my expectations up too high. It's a nice and decent book. Not that bad but not that amazing either.

But Mae said the second book or sequel entitled New Moon was nicer than the first which she claimed was boring when she lent it to me (At least someone agreed ;x). So I'll give it another try. For the sake of the movie. It's been soooooooo long since there's a vampire movie ♥ And they totally choose the right actress for Bella (Kristen Steward) but why did Harry Potter guy, Robert Pattison have to be Edward? Totally spoiled the image 'cause of the influence from that children story. I'd imagined Edward hotter and more.. godlike as Meyer has put it. And yes, I purposely used that picture above cause he looked like a perfect actor for The Hulk x]

Anyway, I was busy reading this yesterday, that's why I didn't update xD But I'm not obsessed. Not even near addicted.. yet, hopefully. And now I feel bad for reading the book instead of watching Lytiel, babysittie yesterday. But she was too busy playing with Sky, her dog to bother with me anyway ¬¬

Oh shit. My dad just came home with my report card Dx Here comes the complains. You know he never says the good parts and keeps blabbing about what subjects I dropped in and yaada yaada. Even one mark also complain. And the subjects that I've improved in more that NINE marks, he's like: "huh. at least got improved a little."

-swears profanities-

Chromotography

2008-07-03T17:00:00.012+08:00

We did some weird filter paper thinga in Science Club today. We as in MV. If you were thinking Music Video then huggs. We think alike. xD

Quote from Wikipedia:

Paper chromatography is an analytical technique for separating and identifying mixtures that are or can be colored, especially pigments. This can also be used in secondary or primary schools in ink experiments. This method has been largely replaced by thin layer chromatography, however it is still a powerful teaching tool. Two-way paper chromatography, also called two-dimensional chromatography, involves using two solvents and rotating the paper 90° in between. This is useful for separating complex mixtures of similar compounds, for example, amino acids.

In short, you write stuff on a piece of filter paper with marker pen or whatever, and drop a few drops of alcohol on top of it. It'll smear and create some sort of effects. Like this!

And these are the ones we did:

Our signatures are pretty much unseen but whatever xD. Middle one done by Cez; right by Ozy and left by Sze Nee.

Su Ann's hot guys (she missed out her gate!) and Cez's tree-tall lover Josh Duhamel.

Vivien, Jen Ching, Wai Lean, Sylvia.

Sze Nee overpowering Amelia Ang by number xD

My partner.

And me.

I know this is retarded but whatever. Fun is fun~ weeee ♥

Random facts:
• PMR is in 101 more days.
• Men should shave their underarms. Poll result: 6-14. WHATEVER. I'LL JUST NEVER TOUCH YOUR DEODORANT EVER AGAIN.
• Skin, skin, Gackt has nice chest skin ><
• Ozy's facial expression = XD at all times.
• Mamee Monster Snack is getting more and more cheapskate every year. So damn small!
• Daniel Tan = Hottest Malaysian guy alive.
• Three Blue 'shits' on Ma'am Irene's head.
• One Republic's Stop and Stare should stop playing on the radio before I decide to hate it.

11.11pm

2008-07-02T23:11:00.003+08:00

wooo. Someone's missing me. hahalol.

Stupid believe. They say, more like Yoo-hee The Witch said if you see 11.11 on the clock, someone misses you. But if you see 4.44, someone's cursing you. Reasons why I don't look at the clock between 4.30 and 5 xDD

Random info, I know xP

My Cure to Stress

2008-07-02T22:05:00.003+08:00

[It's a bigger version! o:]

This was the best 30 minutes for my life since June. Seriously, my first good sleep, or nap in weeks. Just relax and think of nothing but how good Gackt sounds when he sings Love Letter, Last Song, Saikay Story, Orenji no Taiyou, etc. Feel nothing but the cool feeling of that aloe vera hydration mask on my face. I could practically see utopia in all of it's glory. [insert dramatic sigh here.] I swear, they should play Gackt songs in those massaging or beauty salons xD

But okhay, today was a pretty emo day as well. Who could blame me with all that shit I keep involving myself in, willing and unwillingly. I've been trying to stay as invisble as possible today but that only made me look even emo-er. I don't know when I've become so afraid of involving myself with things.. oh right. I do know when. Rolls eyes. But mission failed anyway. I figured I can't not indulge myself with the things going on around me. But I have to stop spacing out.. I think I'm scaring some people. And pissing off some others.

I've never felt the need to be distracted so badly. I can't stay alone for more than 10 minutes or I'll start thinking bout shit and tears would automatically roll down my cheeks. And that really scares me. I don't know why I'm so affected by their shit and it makes me feel weak that I do. Needing distraction makes me feel like I'm running away and I don't want that. I don't need that.

Anyway, I'll make things clear. I won't delete any of my posts even if it kills my reputation. It's my blog. I have the right to write as much as you have the right to read. So if you don't wanna know what circulates in my mind, why bother coming here? Free graphic? Piss off. Sidenote, people should totally update their blogs more often Dx

Avienne asked me a prety good question today. Why do I tend to bitch online and act as if everything is alright in school? Because I personally think that if someone wants to know what I think, they'll ask. I don't want to make a move I'll regret. And if it makes things any clearer, I don't trust the ties of my relationship with others much. It's like something so fragile, it might break when the wind blows. Feels like it's standing on the pointed tip of a pole. I didn't mind smiling and clowning around last time so it probably won't hurt to try to be what I used to be. I just have to get my head up right before stopping all this false facade nonsense. But you know, there are just somethings that I don't wanna share. Somethings that I'd like kept hidden. Everyone has their own secrets :]

And below was how my day went:

School - Mood swing to the max..
Gurney - Choir Senior Farewell. I made my special delicacy, Egg on Beef BBQ xD I was pretty full even though I didn't even manage to eat 3/4 of the food I cooked. Especially since someone couldn't cook their own -looks at Nab- loll. During dessert, Sharon and Fione had this ice-cream war. Sharon won by eating like.. 6 bowls of ice-cream? Then she had to race to the ladies.
Pragin Mall - Someone forgot to look at the time and totally left me alone in Gurney. And I was pretty sure I smelt like BBQ then. Oh well. Better than some sickeningly thick perfumes some people put.
Tuition - Had to rush there like.. right after I bathe? Was so tired I couldn't even process what SK Ong was saying. And he just had to call me. Thank God Chien Ming was distracting his attention alot cause he keeps yapping nonsense and.. painted his fingernails pink. Huhh. He said something about seni but.. yeah cough uhhuh.
Home at last.

Last but not least, I'm sorry Megan D: I shouldn't have said that lie about you. I guess I got affected by all the things I've been told. But even if you've changed, I still love you. -huggs-

Wait, actually, there's one more.

Songs I never wish to listen to ever again:
• Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
• Low - Flo'rida
• Crank It - Shoulja Boy
• Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
• No Air - Jordin Sparks
• Any/All Jonas Brother, Jesse McCartney, Simple Plan, Miley Cyrus and other overrated songs.

Bloggers

2008-07-01T23:03:00.003+08:00

Went blog surfing.. So much lols. Srsly. It's like.. seeing so many types of different people.

Will post about it someday. Along with my complains about Wanted and Hancock (what kind of disturbing name is that?). But now too busy watching Desperate Housewives.

Ciao xD

Stop misusing my good intentions

2008-07-01T22:06:00.006+08:00

This post contains a lot of swears. Do not read for safety reasons.

I'm so fucking annoyed today. Sometimes, I really wonder if some people can be counted as friends? Where's the part where they go "Let me help you" or "Do you need help?" or just a fucking friendly gesture would do. But nooo. Some "friends" are just so fucking selfish they, especially that one can't be arsed to share a single shitty information that need no sweat to do. I mean, it's not like I didn't offer help. So they started before me. But hey, they only started arranging the stuff. Then one of the wires were wrong. I pointed it out. and one little bitch decided to block my way and pretend I never existed. Seriously. That's a FRIEND? A fucking FRIEND? So she can use me and talk to me whenever she needs me but I can't join her when we're doing some fucking work? I don't mean to point fingers, girl but you need to realise that I wasn't wrong because you can just say something. But you don't exactly have much of a say because you also copy people's answers at times. But you shouldn't have fucking treat people as air. We're not your fucking doormat. And if I'm that much of a bother to you, say it. It's not like I slave for you.

But this wasn't what annoyed me most. It's that either she noticed she was wrong and couldn't be arsed to apologize or she's just being plain ignorant. Sad to say I haven't been in very good moods lately but I never am anyway. It just happened to be worse today 'cause there's so much shit in my head and I haven't received a call from satan himself. I want my fucking money back.

Anyway, it's because she totally ignored me after that. WHAT FUCKING WRONG DID I DO!? HUHH?! TELL ME. You were the bitch. What right did you have to hate me? Hate's too strong so I'll use ignore.

Seriously. She's all nice one second and a bitch the next. Like she has double personalities or something, two-faced. Or maybe she's just being nice cause our parents know each other. But if this is the kind of attitude I'm going to receive from her then that's it. No more Mr.. err, Ms-Nice-Girl. These kind of half assed friends in my one-sided friendship aren't worth my breath. If she doesn't apologise, no way in hell am I forgiving her. I know friends forgive and forget and don't hold grudges. But she doesn't treat me like one so why should I? But I won't treat her like shit or air like she does to me.. I'm just not that kind of person. I'll just treat her.. less special. More to a classmate than a friend. Get it? No? Whateverrr.

And that one other son of a bitch. He fucking knows the taboo of dating someone else's ex-girlfriend (did they even officially break up?) but just can't keep his fucking hands in his own pants. Fucking scream. She's just using you. USING YOU. GET THAT STICK OUT OF YOUR ASS AND FACE REALITY. If you get cornered, just fyi, nobody's gonna save your ass 'cause it's your own lack of anything up there that made you such a stubborn prick and not listen to what's fucking good for you. But hey, can't say we didn't try. Though I'm a little disappointed you would dismiss what we told you so easily. But it's your life. I won't be a mom. Do what you shitty like but when you do come back, I hope it'll give you a fucking stab in the ego. But you can still come back to us. If you don't mind the cold shoulders for a couple of weeks. It's not too late to stop your actions sebelum nasi menjadi bubur. So, your choice. I don't give a fucking shit anymore, khay? People are telling me I care too much so I shouldn't. And I wouldn't. Specially about someone who treats my two sense like trash.

...

-breaths in deeply-

Okhay, I'm done. So I was exaggerating a little bit but hella, that felt a whole lot better! But thanks to good ol' counselor wanna-be jay. I would've exploded and jumped down Komtar if you weren't there.. though I feel kinda bad ~~(not really)~~ for asking you to come out during working hours again Dx -huggaglomp-

Oh.. and my eyebags hurt really bad right now.. Too much crying is terrible for dehydrated skin. Feels like it's gonna rip apart anytime soon =___=

I'll take this chance to thank everyone that has viewed my blog xD I'm too lazy to get a sitemeter.. and a music player.. and a blogger link list.. and omg. I'm such a phailure ;__;

10 Things

2008-06-30T17:42:00.011+08:00

..that you probably know about me.
01. I like eggs (sorry, couldn't resist xD).
02. I like grapes.
03. I like Japanese music.
04. I like anime.
05. I like a lot of things, actually.
06. I dislike personal sites like Friendster, Facebook, etc.
07. I am a computer geek.
08. I write stories.
09. I cry easily, especially when watching movies.
10. I dislike being a girl.

...that you probably didn't know about me.
01. I have a pretty high tolerance against alcoholic drinks.
02. I haven't lost any weight so stop flattering me about looking thinner D:
03. I can be a total neatfreak in one moment and a total slob in the next.
04. I have only one pink shirt in my whole closet.
05. I like Shirota Yuu more than Gackt -hides in a corner-
06. I feel bad when I block someone despite how annoying that person could be especially when knowing that person ~~likes~~ is very nice to me.. So I resort to appearing offline or just good ol' sign out. Sides, save me the time of explaining if he asks one of my friends if I was online :/
07. I can't tell the difference between understanding subtle hints and paranoia.
08. I love myself more each time I cut myself :] lol.
09. I think that those who want to date at such an early age should be prepared for break-ups before they think about being together. Those who think that True Love Lasts Forever are just being naive or "blinded by love". I honestly think that losing a close friend is harder than losing a lover and if one wants to mantain their relationship with someone, they should just remain as friends.
10. I think it's wrong to chase after a girl who dumped you. Seriously.

...I wish you knew about me.
01 - 10. I love you lots :]

...I wish you never knew about me.
01. My name.
02. My age.
03. My school.
04. My address.
05. My thoughts.
06. My face.
07. My voice.
08. My contact details.
09. My results and position in class.
10. My school website.

Joke xD 'cept number 9 and 10.. guhh.

And yes, I'm that bored. Shut up. I fawhking hate reading Sejarah.. x[

Sidenote: The fillers in the manga version of Bleach has finally.. I repeat, FINALLY ended. -throws confetti- Or not. Nothing happened :/ pahh.

Su Lin's Refence Book - Second Edition

2008-06-30T15:11:00.010+08:00

Dictionary

Bedonkey [v]
Your ~~ass/arse~~ I mean, your be-hind.

Bullify [n]
When someone is being picked on via words. She, the bullifie crossed her arms and pouted as she was bullified her classmates, the bullifiers. Also look at Bullied.

Chyeah [n]
Means yeah but in a more.. chigga way.

Chigga [v]
A chinese person who.. See how they call black people nigger and white people faggot? So Chigga is.. yeah. Get it?

Defriend [n]
Cut ties ~~and all the lies (stupid lyrics)~~ with a friend. The 6 year old defriended his classmate because the latter threw a worm down his pants. Antonym: Befriend.

Niggotx//Faggerx [v]
Nigger + Faggot or vice versa. Double the effect. The extra X is for the extra sex~

Newbie [v]
Someone new to something/somewhere.

Noob [v]
A litteral idiot.

Otaku [v]
A person very knowledgable in something but is usually used for an Anime Genius.

Wapanese/Japenis [v]
A certain someone, usually a noob, who speaks in English but use certain words in Japanese, such as desu, ne, etc; to prove their otaku-ness. That stupid wapanese was like "Konichiwa! I am baka-head desu. Nice to meet omae wa. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu."

Acronym
(All the shortform swears have been removed by Parental Advisor Control)

afk :: Away from keyboard
bb :: Baby/babe (not byebye >_>)
brb :: Be right back (whoever that doesn't know this.., is an idiot; period)
cba :: Can't be arsed
ikr :: I know right
idly :: I don't like/love you, in other words, ih8y.
lol :: Laugh out loud
pp :: Punctuation please
nrn :: Not right now
rotfflmfao :: Rolling on the ~~fucking~~ floor laughing my ~~fucking~~ ass off.
tmi :: Too much information
ttyl :: Talk to you later
wtf :: What the ~~fuck~~

Note: This will be updated when I get more info from Cezanne, my Managing Director who takes note of every wrong word I use Dx

I seriously think I've gone insane.

But not as insane as those two weirdos wrestling on the pavement in front of CGL just now. They recieved a weird look (shot an eyebrow up) from me and the one guy seemed to have noticed and quickly pushed his friend away, wiped his hands on his pants and flashed me a look before telling something to his friend who turned back to give me a quick glance. Guess they could tell what I was thinking cause flashed me an embarrassed smile ~ woo xD And of course, I returned a smile of my own.. or smirk ;x

Butchering Boredom

2008-06-29T13:13:00.008+08:00

Was so bored today so I decided to do Ozy's header while listening to David Cook's Time of My Life. But turns out she couldn't come online today.. Waste my energy only.. But this was how it turned out.

So flashy, no? xP And uh, if you're reading this, you can save it and put it in your blog, yeah? But if you don't like it then tell me and I'll see what I can do.

Anyway, like I said, she wasn't on so I was stuck being bored again cause I took like 15 minutes to do that >_>; It was only two pictures merged! So I did another one to replace my header :D ..cept it looks all emo.

See what I mean? But it was good graphic :/ Looks somewhat like a +18SG movie poster. In my opinion anyway. And of course, credits to the deviantart users like zemotion and others. No plagiarism please.

And Avienne, I need pics and details for your header, man ><

P.S. While picture hunting, I found two pictures that really caught my attention. Though I'm a little unsatisfied that I forgot to take note of the user who took the first photo. The doll was taken by hiritai.

Lucky Number 8

2008-06-28T16:08:00.003+08:00

Okhay. This is getting scary.

Time posted: 4.08
Date today: June 28, 2008
Lucky draw prize during Green Day: 8
Number of blueblacks: 8
Number of Clorets left: 8
Number of windows open: 8
Number of post-it-notes left: 8
Number of pages of homework left: 8
Watching Brown Sugar Macchiato Episode: 8

EIGHTEIghT8eight88ht8eig8th8888.

-runs around screaming like a possessed idiot-

...

Okhay, okhay, I'm done xD

Excessive sugar in my blood can do lots~♥`

Panda

2008-06-28T15:25:00.006+08:00

Just got reminded. Image Google: Su Lin

Why oh why did my parents name me after a panda? Not just one panda but TWO ><

Quote from Wikipedia:

Su-Lin (Chinese: 蘇琳 <-- only the Lin is the same; pinyin: Sūlín) was the name given to the giant panda cub captured in 1936 and brought to America by the explorer Ruth Harkness.
Su-Lin, 9 weeks old at the time of his capture, was named after Su-Lin Young, the sister-in-law of Harkness's expedition partner Quentin Young. (Harkness and Young were unaware that the baby panda was, in fact, a male <-- screw you.)

Harkness returned to America with the bottle-fed cub, and Su-Lin became the first live panda to come to the United States. blahblah from China.

And another one:

Su Lin is a female giant panda born at the San Diego Zoo on August 2, 2005. Her name — one of five options in an online poll — means "a little bit of something very cute" in Chinese <-- o haha.
Su Lin is the third cub born to her mother Bai Yun, and the second to her sire Gao Gao. Like her older brother Mei Sheng and younger sister Zhen Zhen, she was conceived via natural mating.

Blah. At least I don't have the name of pornstars~cough.

P.S. I was thinking.. Maybe I should open a layout request shop. For blogs, sites and whatever. And of course it's not F.O.C. x]

Break a leg.. Literally.

2008-06-27T20:05:00.009+08:00

MY LEGS.. no, FEET HURT! Why did I agree to go shopping after the stupid Green Run? It's like adding salt on an open woundddd. Oh for the love of Godd, why didn't it rain?! When it should rain, it doesn't. When it shouldn't, it does. Mother $^%*.

But it was kinda fun I guess. Even though I've been friends with her for years, I've never been out with Cez alone before :D There's a first for everything~

Wait, that's not the point. The point is, MY FEET ARE FUCKING KILLING ME.

When I was running, it didn't hurt at all.. maybe it was numb by the burning sensation given off when I sprinted the first uhh.. 5 seconds? xD (Hey! I didn't get last, khay!) But I could literally hear the sound of my heart pumping in my ears. It was so loud and steady. Especially when going up the hill. I nearly fell when running down it cause I couldn't stop my own feet. But I didn't so hah.

I could still walk and everything after that. I couldn't bear to sit down too long cause I know my legs will just die on me and I'll never be able to stand again >.>

Oh, and the lucky draw! I won the 8th prize! woo! NOT. I won back my scientific calculator. The exact one that I'm using right now >__< !! But I never expected that I would win anything so.. whatever la. When the teacher call me, I was technically asleep. Then I heard Shu Lyn shout: "there's two shu/su lins!" Then I snapped my attention to Puan Annie who was the uhh.. juruacara. Did my English just died? AHHH. Don't care anymore. But on the sidenote, I LOOK LIKE AVIENNE IN THIS PICTURE! OMGGG. TELL ME I'M JUST SEEING THINGS! NOT ANOTHER TWIN!! DDx

[Picture deleted 'cause someone was being a culo ¬¬]

...

Now tell me how insensitive can men be?

kYean says:
are u fat?

I WEIGH 800kg MAN! wooo!! I'll post down a pic of my fats but people are gonna say stuff about me being hiao so.. huhh.

But I just love the light effect of this picture. Makes it look as if I have never seen light in years -cough- And ignore the messy hair. You know I had to cut off like.. THIS much hair? I MISS MY LONG FRINGEEE.

And then there's my blueblack! THREE OF THEM! All on my left leg. One is like.. hideously huge as in 2 inches in diameter and yellow and greenish. GUHH. I don't even know how I got it. I just woke up and BAM! Blueblack on my calf ¬¬ But I'm too lazy to take a picture right now..

Green Run 27/6

2008-06-26T19:48:00.002+08:00

Or Merentas Desa.

[insert all the ~~vulgar~~ not-so-benevolent words you can think of]

I am going to DIE.

That's all.

P.S. I should post some pictures of us looking all exhausted and tired out :D In fact, I just might! Can already imagine everyone's face going red and panting like a mad cow and sweating like a buffalo under the blazing hot sun. yay yay yayy!

..now where did my battery charger go.

Discrimination

2008-06-26T16:44:00.004+08:00

My mom is so annoying. She's not exactly the thinnest person on Earth but there she goes, yapping about who's fat and whatnot. So what if someone is overweight? Not all pretty people have to be in only skin and bones. We have every right to eat whatever and however much we want as long as we can afford it >_> And manlier women aren't gender-confused. They're just being who they originally are.

Nobody should force a false facade on themselves for the sake of someone else or what they think. If anyone says you can never be selfish, then screw them. Your personality and individuality is your own and you can be selfish about it all you want (as long as it doesn't harm others.. cough).

If you wanna be a tomboy, go ahead.
If you wanna be gay, just do it.
If you wanna be all hiao and lala, be my guest.
If you wanna be an ah pek, no problem.
If you wanna be an emo poser, also none of my business.

Just don't drag me down with you. I like being 50-50 of everything. Neutral :D

But I just don't like it when people discriminate others of how they look/act. It's so annoying. I mean, it's not like they're perfect or some shit. And what is perfect? Perfection is different from everyone's point of view so shut up and accept other's point of views like how they'll accept yours 'cause they have thiers and you have yours.

...

Okhay, I'm done. And I love my mom. I was saying all in general, not purposely aiming at her.

Anyway, we sang the ABC-- I mean, Alphabet Song today. yayy! We went back to preschool! loll. I like Ma'am Irene and everything but she's getting a little bit.. uhh, that when she teaches us. She treats us like pre-schoolers and.. But we're actually learning stuff so I'm not really complaining. Though everyone seems to send some sort of antipathy feeling towards her.

Hmm..

Whatever. Doesn't concern me. As long as I don't fail English (is it even possible to fail English?), I'm khay-o-khay with it~

Now I need to choose between studying or watching Brown Sugar Macchiato.. ¬¬

Oh right, I forgot to introduce the show! (Maybe it's cause the show had a really terrible rating but who cares! It's probably due to the lack of sense and the story is moving too fast.) I can't be arsed now though. All you need to know is that they're hotter than Fahrenheit(Fei Lun Hai) and/or 183Club.

And hottest guy goes to..

Wang Zi! xDD

But still not good enough to be on my fanlist :[ so sadd. But seriously la. I've only watched one show in which he starred in.

Music Out-of-the-Box

2008-06-25T15:50:00.006+08:00

I've been reading Junk a lot lately and found a lot of intersting.. well, junk xD It's more towards music celebrities than movies which is all good for me cause I'm more of listening than watching.

Anyway, there're so many genre of music that I never knew existed x] Like this one song, Comic Shop by and Australian band, Tripod. It's HILARIOUS! The vocal ain't that good but the lyrics and the dude's espressions are a work of art loll. They consist of three geeky guys singing about video games, technology, and other stuff.

Then there's Steel Panther aka Metal Skool which is a type of comedy sorta glam metal parody band. Oh God they're so awhsum. Good vocal, good song and.. Kelly Clarkson (who was drunk and so not herself) went for the concert!! Along with Ryan Key, the vocalist of Yellowcard haha.

Yes, I'm drugged. And Madonna has a flabby fat ass.

Speaking of ass, my stupid teacher is so bloody bias. She refused to mark my book because I had bad handwritting.. but my writting has been the same since what? I was taught how to write? She's currently just hatin' me cause I quit choir. But I wouldn't have quit if she would get that stick out of her ass and listen to what I have to say for once. She thinks she's always right. So fucking immature. What is up with her head? Her brain, I mean (or lack of) but her hair is pretty screwed up anyway.

Why does she hate me? 'Cause she thinks I've been telling lies about why I couldn't go for the Choralffest which I don't get why she's making such a big deal out of it. I was at KL. I told her I would only return after the concert which was on Monday. But I returned early (on Sunday morning) to go for someone's funeral. So I was too tired to go for the concert that night. Then I went for the practice on Tuesday. Dude. They let me try a solo on a song I've sang less than 4 times before. Like wtf? So, whatever la. Cincai sing. Then the next day I kena sorethroat so I couldn't go. Because of not being able to attend the practices, there is no way I can sing that song so I didn't mind not going for the competition.

But then she became all anti-me. Like ignoring me and stuff. SO IMMATUREEEEE. WHAT KIND OF TEACHER IS THISSS. SHE'S PRACTICALLY 45 YEARS OLDDD!!

-screams-

Ah well, I was gonna quit next year anyway. Can't stand the two of them. Always asking us out of class despite the importance of the class at hand. I focus more on academics than singing, thank you very much. And that attitude of hers. I don't understand why I should spend two extra hours of my time standing it. I have enough of her just in class. But now I still have to suck up to her 'cause there's this thing called coursework marks and if she's ignorant enough to give me a zero out of twenty, I will fail moral. Then next year, will fail Chemistry.

So Opperation Teacher's Ass-Kisser, start!

Friendster

2008-06-24T16:54:00.008+08:00

Friendster is created by the devil.

Friendster is an Internet social network service. The Friendster site was founded in Mountain View, California, United States by Jonathan Abrams in March 2002 and is privately owned.

Friendster is based on the Circle of Friends and Web of Friends techniques for networking individuals in virtual communities and demonstrates the small world phenomenon. It currently has more than 70 million members worldwide and is mostly used in Asia.

Friendster is bombarded by:

• girl lala's [click] [click] [click] [click] aiya. too many d la.
• boy lala's [click] [click] is he naked? wtf?
• glitters [click] Warning! The profile pic is really scary! x_x
• emo posers [click] this guy seriously lost his mind. Emo with hearts? ...
• premature ~~sluts~~ [click]
• porn [click]
• porn [click]
• and more porn. [click.. or not. this one too hardcore liau.]

Time for a controversy people. It's not cute. It's not cool. It's not earning you any brownie points. And it's definately not putting you on a higher price.

Pink, heart shapes and "baby angel" is overrated. Shiny things are eye raping. Cheap and loose is not sexy. "I listen to Linkin Park and cut myself" was never the in thing. Emo is just a genre of music. Gothic is a character plastered for boybands with too much make-up, which they wear for the sake of image and publisity in terms of their genre of music. Shuffling is not breakdancing. It's just half a moonwalk.

If you're offended then just look at this post again. Does it tell you I care?

I have no personal grudge against the examples used. Just.. examples. If it's you then.. well, yeah. Blame my cursor :D

But while you're at it, please see how retarded people can be when they've been sucked into the virtual Friendster World.

I don't understand a shit she's singing but y'know.. good guitar skills? .__.

And one more thing.. If you can't draw your favourite idol.. don't.. just don't. 'Cause look at poor little Gita Gutawa on some dude's friendster page xD

It was originally this:

So I made my own out of spite. If you didn't know, I never really liked Gita Gutawa.. Ever since she sang that ear bleeding song Sempurna. I won't post it here 'cause it might cause another Cynthia Pang case.

weee~

Temporary Teachers

2008-06-24T11:38:00.008+08:00

The whole first 4 periods, we were under 3 different--

Avienne says hi to the world.

...

Anyway..

We were under two different trainee teachers and one retired teacher who was pretty fun. In all honesty, minus the Indian teacher what's here name, the other teachers were really fun.. kinda.

We started with the Australian teacher with PE lesson (no Puan Leong! yay!!) Like Carmen said, we had more exercise this morning than we did in two years time. The Green Run doesn't count ¬¬

Then we had our new English teacher who retired, Puan-- I mean, Ma'am Irene. She's fun. More exciting than any other teacher in this school anyway. Especially the one with the fiveee longgg minutes. Yes, you may roll your eyes.

But Ma'am Irene is a little bit.. uhh.. odd? But still fun! She uses good English. Which is the most important thing. I don't exactly enjoy talking to people who speak like Primary kids; no offence. And she's all about teaching Phonetics as for now.. all the dictionary crap and guhh.

Speaking of that, now I have to photostat and laminate the stupid thing for the majority of class. Blame me and my kindheartedness. Actually it was only me.. and Ozy.. then Wai Lean.. then Su Ann.. then.. EVERYONE ELSE WTFF >__<

Out of topic but I have to say it.

One. Just because I think that one guy has a hot voice when he speaks Malay doesn't mean I have a crush on him.

Two. I don't like LKY. Shut up.

Three. I don't need to be sengek to grab your boobs, Avienne.. who BIT MY EAR! and made a long scratch on my hand!! WTF!

Chyeah. Byeeee.

Self-proclaimed Cyber-School

2008-06-23T18:57:00.005+08:00

Lets all minus the fact that I didn't know that my school had a website until the beginning of this year and move along with where is this said website? I googled and googled and googled. NOTHING! How lame can this get! Although there's probably nothing in it but at least it's something! I mean, almost every school has it's own page on wikipedia.. except MGS! And youtube also. No matter what you search, surely got results. Search MGS Penang or Methodist Girls' School Penang, you get absolutely nothing; or maybe you'll get MGS church or MGS Singapore. Where got such thing waaaann >__<

There are three computer rooms in MGS, plus the Cyber Lab. The internet doesn't always work (and it's super snail but better than last year..) but at least it can function enough to manage a working and visible website!

-insert blood shrilling scream here-

I'm so damn oh-so-very disappointed right now..

But anyway, if you happen to find/know the link, inform me khay x]

My sole picture of the school ground. 2006. Get over it.

xD

This brings back so much memory that it's scary loll. I can't be arsed to blurrify our faces so if there are no complains, I won't bother ._.

Obsession is Healthy

2008-06-23T15:16:00.005+08:00

I can't stop touching my Kumo-chan. It's so.. touchable. And stop drifting to your corrupted imaginary land. Kumo-chan = My sexy turtle. Or tortoise. I think it's a tortoise 'cause it has stumpier feet and not flaps. But the manual says it's a turtle. That or I just failed Japanese~ weee; not new.

I don't see the difference!! Yuhoo! I mean, for all you know, turtles can look like this:

Uhm, without a shell. But it's called soft-shelled so that means it does have a shell, right? Okhay, I seriously terpesong liau.

I'm also aroused by my sexy header. It makes me sound so photoshop-nurdie and stuff but I can't help it D: I mean, even Puan Cheah, my school disciplinary teacher thought it was "pretty". Seriously! We were in the computer lab during mathematic class and she was our teacher. Then she gave us the last 5 minutes, TWO actually, to do our own stuff so I went to my blog 'cause I wanted to show off my header to Avienne and SammyT(I want your blog link, btw) who spammed in my cbox and I took the courtesy of deleting it~

Uhh, anyway, Puan Cheah came behind me and was like "Hey! What is that? So pretty ah!" And NO! This is not self-praise(a little), I quote it litterally! Hah! But sad case is that I have a swear word in here so in order to not tarnish my good name in her point of view, I Alt+F4 when she wasn't looking at my fingers.. then Avienne got the blame cause she had the mouse xD loll.

Speaking of Avienne, she got me addicted to Katy Perry's I Kissed A Girl.

If you're thinking we're lesbians then all I have to say is that you have a very very narrow mind. It's just a good song. Just like how The L Word is a good show. Supposedly. I haven't watched it yet but I want to. They just don't sell it here :/

P.S. If you're trying to get to me through sms, I'll just inform you that I'm officially broke. Credit wise. So bad until I have to buy from Su Ann. For the first time in years!! Dx

P.S.S. Notice how my blogger link is such an awhsum tongue twister? I've been hearing a lot of:
• need see say more
• need she shay more
• and one 'need she shave more' ¬¬ dunno who orh?

Hi, I changed my link.

2008-06-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

Hello! Changed my link!
Hey, remade a blog!
Relink mee.

-screams-

Remind me to never EVER change a blog link! So much trouble! I've been typing the same thing for more than 20 times and that is IT! ><

Oh, and yes, I made my own layout again. Sorry Dani Dx I wanted to make yours but I couldn't get the colors right without trying it on the real thing.

Credits to.. uhh.. Can't recall. I saved these pictures from 6 months ago ._. Cheers to them!

The Returner

2008-06-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

I have to watch that show, srsly.

Anyway, I gave up on writing as in litterally writing a journal or in a girly way, diary. Wasting ink.. and paper. I'm that environmental friendly. Love me please, trees!

A lot has happened with me lately. Problems and such. You know, in terms of relationships, friendships, family wise and et cetera.. But it's all good now. I've solved almost half of my problems :] It's actually not as bad, I figured. I mean, eveyone has to go through many things, else what point and meaning would there be in growing up if we don't learn from our mistakes. I saw this quote in a manga and shut up. I know it doesn't sound professional but I didn't say it would be. The character said, "There wasn't any miscalculation. That was the biggest miscalculation I made."

I'm tired of wasting my life like that. Always wanting to impress people. Wanting them to turn back and notice that I've fallen behind. The attention. Which woman wouldn't want? Which teenage girl wouldn't desire? Which human wouldn't need? But I guess noone can like everyone. So I'll just let it be.. Don't get me wrong. I'm emotional but not, and never will be at the poser state of "Look at me. Pity me. Shower me with your attention because I'm emo."

Speaking of emo, I'm still seriously pissed at the misuse of that word. Do people really think it's cool to pose on the street and take pictures of yourself pretending to be a begger on the street? Same goes for people doing all this.. self-proclaimed cute poses that we like to call "lala" or seafood or whatever. Reality check, it's not. Get over it. It makes you look cheaper than you already are. 'cause everyone, EVERYONE can be lala. It's not that hard. But it's hard to get a good decent image that attracts attention, huhh? But you don't need good looks to have more friends. First impressions, sure. But that won't last forever. And and.. people should stop abusing the Japanese language. Everytime I go to an anime forum, all the words I see are neko, desu, kawaii, ecchi, ne, desu, arigato, konichiwa, desu, desu and did I mention DESU!? And it's not even the whole sentence like "atashi ga oname wa sulin desu". It's the type that goes "my name is sulin desu." WTF. Oh, and lets not forget the PpL hU TyP LyK dIs. Cute mehh?!

-screams and watches an atom bomb fall onto Komtar-

Oh wait, I don't live near Komtar.

Whatever.

First post and already ranting.. I should just rename is blog as "Rant-A-Lot".

Or not. 'Cause I'm actually pretty happy! My sis came back from Thailand. She went there for working reasons. Canon, delighted with your money always. Anyway, she bought me this seriously cute roboturtle! No, it's not a ninja turtle. Shut the fuck up >_>

It's a... Takara Walkie Bits Overlord Turtle (Heart Edition)! lol.

It's so tiny and adorable. It walks and makes this beeping noise and it sings and.. and stuff xD It's hilarious! And honestly, I have no idea how it works. I'm just randomly pressing it's shell haha. But it's cute, no? x]

...

Alrighttt.. -googles for the instruction before I break the thing-